being alone

ah~
all alone at home doing nothing other than playing dragon age 2 and read a book ding recommend, sputnik sweetheart. occasionally, went out for a jog and wall climb a little.
not much socialization needed.

ah~
neat!!! the life i wanted.

hmmmm...
maybe i just ain't good in communicating with other people? maybe i had some psychological problem that i didn't know bout? or maybe my mom implanted a microchip in my brain to make me think that being alone is good just to get me out from serious trouble?

oh yeah.
had a dinner with my father side of the family on last Sunday. not really pleasant. to the max!! there's this bunch of cousins who i had no idea how to talk to. there's one or two cousins that I'm close with but they kinda came late. so there's this 20 minute awkward period where my aunt asked me to talk with the other cousins but i end up chatting with her instead. XD
wonder whether i can recognize them if we meet each other some where outside. what should i do then? say hi and bye just like what i did to my hi-bye friends?
communicating is such a hardcore stuff.
aiks!!
+ i think cause of that incident, my mom bought me a book that teach people how to communicate and forcefully ask me to read it.
argh!!! its super bored!!! + the book is more like promoting itself!!! teaching?? perhaps a few facts here and there but mostly is bout the successful story where the author manage to help certain people (mostly the famous + successful ones) to communicate better and grant them chances of the lifetime to be successful.